桨声灯影里的秦淮河

一yī九jiǔ二èr三sān年nián八bā月yuè的de一yī晚wǎn,我wǒ和hé平píng伯bó同tóng游yóu秦qín淮huái河hé;平píng伯bó是shì初chū泛fàn,我wǒ是shì重chóng来lái了liǎo。我wǒ们men雇gù了liǎo一yī只zhī「七qī板bǎn子zǐ」,在zài夕xī阳yáng已yǐ去qù、皎jiǎo月yuè方fāng来lái的de时shí候hòu,便biàn下xià了liǎo船chuán。于yú是shì桨jiǎng声shēng汩gǔ汩gǔ,我wǒ们men开kāi始shǐ领lǐng略lüè那nà晃huàng荡dang着zhe蔷qiáng薇wēi色sè的de历lì史shǐ的de秦qín淮huái河hé的de滋zī味wèi了liǎo。

秦qín淮huái河hé里lǐ的de船chuán,比bǐ北běi京jīng万wàn生shēng园yuán、颐yí和hé园yuán的de船chuán好hǎo,比bǐ西xī湖hú的de船chuán好hǎo,比bǐ扬yáng州zhōu瘦shòu西xī湖hú的de船chuán也yě好hǎo。这zhè几jǐ处chù的de船chuán不bú是shì觉jué着zhe笨bèn,就jiù是shì觉jué着zhe简jiǎn陋lòu、局jú促cù;都dōu不bù能néng引yǐn起qǐ乘chéng客kè们men的de情qíng韵yùn,如rú秦qín淮huái河hé的de船chuán一yí样yàng。秦qín淮huái河hé的de船chuán约yuē略lüè可kě分fēn为wèi两liǎng种zhǒng:一yī是shì大dà船chuán;一yī是shì小xiǎo船chuán,就jiù是shì所suǒ谓wèi「七qī板bǎn子zǐ」。大dà船chuán舱cāng口kǒu阔kuò大dà,可kě容róng二èr三sān十shí人rén。里lǐ面miàn陈chén设shè着zhe字zì画huà和hé光guāng洁jié的de红hóng木mù家jiā具jù,桌zhuō上shàng一yí律lǜ嵌qiàn着zhe冰bīng凉liáng的de大dà理lǐ石shí面miàn。窗chuāng格gé雕diāo镂lòu颇pō细xì,使shǐ人rén起qǐ柔róu腻nì之zhī感gǎn。窗chuāng格gé里lǐ映yìng着zhe红hóng色sè蓝lán色sè的de玻bō璃lí;玻bō璃lí上shàng有yǒu精jīng致zhì的de花huā纹wén,也yě颇pō悦yuè人rén目mù。「七qī板bǎn子zǐ」规guī模mó虽suī不bù及jí大dà船chuán,但dàn那nà淡dàn蓝lán色sè的de栏lán杆gān,空kōng敞chǎng的de舱cāng,也yě足zú系xì人rén情qíng思sī。而ér最zuì出chū色sè处chù却què在zài它tā的de舱cāng前qián。舱cāng前qián是shì甲jiǎ板bǎn上shàng的de一yī部bù,上shàng面miàn有yǒu弧hú形xíng的de顶dǐng,两liǎng边biān用yòng疏shū疏shū的de栏lán杆gān支zhī着zhe。里lǐ面miàn通tōng常cháng放fàng着zhe两liǎng张zhāng藤téng的de躺tǎng椅yǐ。躺tǎng下xià,可kě以yǐ谈tán天tiān,可kě以yǐ望wàng远yuǎn,可kě以yǐ顾gù盼pàn两liǎng岸àn的de河hé房fáng。大dà船chuán上shàng也yě有yǒu这zhè个ge,但dàn在zài小xiǎo船chuán上shàng更gèng觉jué清qīng隽jùn罢bà了le。舱cāng前qián的de顶dǐng下xià,一yí律lǜ悬xuán着zhe灯dēng彩cǎi;灯dēng的de多duō少shǎo、明míng暗àn,彩cǎi苏sū的de精jīng粗cū、艳yàn晦huì,是shì不bù一yī的de,但dàn好hǎo歹dǎi总zǒng还hái你nǐ一yí个gè灯dēng彩cǎi。这zhè灯dēng彩cǎi实shí在zài是shì最zuì能néng勾gōu人rén的de东dōng西xī。夜yè幕mù垂chuí垂chuí地dì下xià来lái时shí,大dà小xiǎo船chuán上shàng都dōu点diǎn起qǐ灯dēng火huǒ。从cóng两liǎng重chóng玻bō璃lí里lǐ映yìng出chū那nà辐fú射shè着zhe的de黄huáng黄huáng的de散sǎn光guāng,反fǎn晕yūn出chū一yī片piàn朦méng胧lóng的de烟yān霭ǎi;透tòu过guò这zhè烟yān霭ǎi,在zài黯àn黯àn的de水shuǐ波bō里lǐ,又yòu逗dòu起qǐ缕lǚ缕lǚ的de明míng漪yī。在zài这zhè薄báo霭ǎi和hé微wēi漪yī里lǐ,听tīng着zhe那nà悠yōu然rán的de间jiàn歇xiē的de桨jiǎng声shēng,谁shuí能néng不bù被bèi引yǐn入rù他tā的de美měi梦mèng去qù呢ne?只zhī愁chóu梦mèng太tài多duō了liǎo,这zhè些xiē大dà小xiǎo船chuán儿ér如rú何hé载zǎi得dé起qǐ呀ya?我wǒ们men这zhè时shí模mó模mó糊hu糊hú的de谈tán着zhe明míng末mò的de秦qín淮huái河hé的de艳yàn迹jì,如rú《桃táo花huā扇shàn》及jí《板bǎn桥qiáo杂zá记jì》里lǐ所suǒ载zǎi的de。我wǒ们men真zhēn神shén往wǎng了liǎo。我wǒ们men仿fǎng佛fú亲qīn见jiàn那nà时shí华huá灯dēng映yìng水shuǐ,画huà舫fǎng凌líng波bō的de光guāng景jǐng了liǎo。于yú是shì我wǒ们men的de船chuán便biàn成chéng了le历lì史shǐ的de重zhòng载zǎi了liǎo。我wǒ们men终zhōng于yú恍huǎng然rán秦qín淮huái河hé的de船chuán所suǒ以yǐ雅yǎ丽lì过guò于yú他tā处chù,而ér又yòu有yǒu奇qí异yì的de吸xī引yǐn力lì的de,实shí在zài是shì许xǔ多duō历lì史shǐ的de影yǐng像xiàng使shǐ然rán了liǎo。

秦qín淮huái河hé的de水shuǐ是shì碧bì阴yīn阴yīn的de;看kàn起qǐ来lái厚hòu而ér不bù腻nì,或huò者zhě是shì六liù朝cháo金jīn粉fěn所suǒ凝níng么me?我wǒ们men初chū上shàng船chuán的de时shí候hòu,天tiān色sè还hái未wèi断duàn黑hēi,那nà漾yàng漾yàng的de柔róu波bō是shì这zhè样yàng恬tián静jìng、委wěi婉wǎn,使shǐ我wǒ们men一yí面miàn有yǒu水shuǐ阔kuò天tiān空kōng之zhī想xiǎng,一yí面miàn又yòu憧chōng憬jǐng着zhe纸zhǐ醉zuì金jīn迷mí之zhī境jìng了liǎo。等děng到dào灯dēng火huǒ明míng时shí,阴yīn阴yīn的de变biàn为wèi沈shěn沉chén了liǎo:黯àn淡dàn的de水shuǐ光guāng,像xiàng梦mèng一yì般bān;那nà偶ǒu然rán闪shǎn烁shuò着zhe的de光guāng芒máng,就jiù是shì梦mèng的de眼yǎn睛jīng了liǎo。我wǒ们men坐zuò在zài舱cāng前qián,因yīn了liǎo那nà隆lóng起qǐ的de顶dǐng棚péng,仿fǎng佛fú总zǒng是shì昂áng着zhe首shǒu向xiàng前qián走zǒu着zhe似shì的de;于yú是shì飘piāo飘piāo然rán如rú御yù风fēng而ér行xíng的de我wǒ们men,看kàn着zhe那nà些xiē自zì在zài的de湾wān泊bó着zhe的de船chuán,船chuán里lǐ走zǒu马mǎ灯dēng般bān的de人rén物wù,便biàn像xiàng是shì下xià界jiè一yì般bān,迢tiáo迢tiáo的de远yuǎn了liǎo,又yòu像xiàng在zài雾wù里lǐ看kàn花huā,尽jìn朦méng朦méng胧lóng胧lóng的de。这zhè时shí我wǒ们men已yǐ过guò了liǎo利lì涉shè桥qiáo,望wàng见jiàn东dōng关guān头tóu了liǎo。沿yán路lù听tīng见jiàn断duàn续xù的de歌gē声shēng:有yǒu从cóng沿yán河hé的de妓jì楼lóu飘piāo来lái的de,有yǒu从cóng河hé上shàng船chuán里lǐ渡dù来lái的de。我wǒ们men明míng知zhī那nà些xiē歌gē声shēng,只zhǐ是shì些xiē因yīn袭xí的de言yán词cí,从cóng生shēng涩sè的de歌gē喉hóu里lǐ机jī械xiè的de发fā出chū来lái的de;但dàn它tā们men经jīng了liǎo夏xià夜yè的de微wēi风fēng的de吹chuī漾yàng和hé水shuǐ波bō的de摇yáo拂fú,嬝niǎo娜nà着zhe到dào我wǒ们men耳ěr边biān的de时shí候hòu,已yǐ经jīng不bù单dān是shì她tā们men的de歌gē声shēng,而ér混hùn着zhe微wēi风fēng和hé河hé水shuǐ的de密mì语yǔ了liǎo。于yú是shì我wǒ们men不bù得dé不bù被bèi牵qiān惹rě着zhe,震zhèn撼hàn着zhe,相xiāng与yǔ浮fú沉chén于yú这zhè歌gē声shēng里lǐ了liǎo。从cóng东dōng关guān头tóu转zhuǎn弯wān,不bù久jiǔ就jiù到dào大dà中zhōng桥qiáo。大dà中zhōng桥qiáo共gòng有yǒu三sān个gè桥qiáo拱gǒng,都dōu很hěn阔kuò大dà,俨yǎn然rán是shì三sān座zuò门mén儿ér;使shǐ我wǒ们men觉jué得de我wǒ们men的de船chuán和hé船chuán里lǐ的de我wǒ们men,在zài桥qiáo下xià过guò去qù时shí,真zhēn是shì太tài无wú颜yán色sè了liǎo。桥qiáo砖zhuān是shì深shēn褐hè色sè,表biǎo明míng它tā的de历lì史shǐ的de长cháng久jiǔ;但dàn都dōu完wán好hǎo无wú缺quē,令lìng人rén太tài息xī于yú古gǔ昔xī工gōng程chéng的de坚jiān美měi。桥qiáo上shàng两liǎng旁páng都dōu是shì木mù壁bì的de房fáng子zi,中zhōng间jiān应yīng该gāi有yǒu街jiē路lù。这zhè些xiē房fáng子zi都dōu破pò旧jiù了liǎo,多duō年nián烟yān熏xūn的de迹jì,遮zhē没méi了le当dāng年nián的de美měi丽lì。我wǒ想xiǎng像xiàng秦qín淮huái河hé的de极jí盛shèng时shí,在zài这zhè样yàng宏hóng阔kuò的de桥qiáo上shàng,特tè地dì盖gài了liǎo房fáng子zi,必bì然rán是shì髹xiū漆qī得dé富fù富fù丽lì丽lì的de;晚wǎn间jiān必bì然rán是shì灯dēng火huǒ通tōng明míng的de,现xiàn在zài却què只zhī剩shèng下xià一yī片piàn黑hēi沉chén沉chén!但dàn是shì桥qiáo上shàng造zào着zhe房fáng子zi,毕bì竟jìng使shǐ我wǒ们men多duō少shǎo可kě以yǐ想xiǎng见jiàn往wǎng日rì的de繁fán华huá;这zhè也yě慰wèi情qíng聊liáo胜shèng无wú了liǎo。过guò了liǎo大dà中zhōng桥qiáo,便biàn到dào了le灯dēng月yuè交jiāo辉huī、笙shēng歌gē彻chè夜yè的de秦qín淮huái河hé,这zhè才cái是shì秦qín淮huái河hé的de真zhēn面miàn目mù哩lī。

大dà中zhōng桥qiáo外wài,顿dùn然rán空kōng阔kuò,和hé桥qiáo内nèi两liǎng岸àn排pái着zhe密mì密mì的de人rén家jiā的de景jǐng像xiàng大dà异yì了liǎo。一yì眼yǎn望wàng去qù,疏shū疏shū的de林lín,淡dàn淡dàn的de月yuè,衬chèn着zhe蔚wèi蓝lán的de天tiān,颇pō像xiàng荒huāng江jiāng野yě渡dù光guāng景jǐng;那nà边biān呢ne,郁yù丛cóng丛cóng的de,阴yīn森sēn森sēn的de,又yòu似sì乎hū藏cáng着zhe无wú边biān的de黑hēi暗àn,令lìng人rén几jī乎hū不bù信xìn那nà是shì繁fán华huá的de秦qín淮huái河hé了liǎo。但dàn是shì河hé中zhōng眩xuàn晕yùn着zhe的de灯dēng光guāng,纵zòng横héng着zhe的de画huà舫fǎng,悠yōu扬yáng着zhe的de笛dí韵yùn,夹jiá着zhe那nà吱zhī吱zhī的de胡hú琴qín声shēng,终zhōng于yú使shǐ我wǒ们men认rèn识shi绿lǜ如rú茵yīn陈chén酒jiǔ的de秦qín淮huái水shuǐ了liǎo。此cǐ地dì天tiān裸luǒ露lù着zhe的de多duō些xiē,故gù觉jué夜yè来lái的de独dú迟chí些xiē;从cóng清qīng清qīng的de水shuǐ影yǐng里lǐ,我wǒ们men感gǎn到dào的de只zhǐ是shì薄báo薄báo的de夜yè——这zhè正zhèng是shì秦qín淮huái河hé的de夜yè。大dà中zhōng桥qiáo外wài,本běn来lái还hái有yǒu一yī座zuò复fù成chéng桥qiáo,是shì船chuán夫fū口kǒu中zhōng的de我wǒ们men的de游yóu踪zōng尽jìn处chù,或huò也yě是shì秦qín淮huái河hé繁fán华huá的de尽jìn处chù了liǎo。我wǒ的de脚jiǎo曾céng踏tà过guò复fù成chéng桥qiáo的de脊jǐ,在zài十shí三sān四sì岁suì的de时shí候hòu。但dàn是shì两liǎng次cì游yóu秦qín淮huái河hé,却què都dōu不bù曾céng见jiàn着zhe复fù成chéng桥qiáo的de面miàn;明míng知zhī总zǒng在zài前qián途tú的de,却què常cháng觉jué得de有yǒu些xiē虚xū无wú缥piāo缈miǎo似shì的de。我wǒ想xiǎng,不bú见jiàn倒dǎo也yě好hǎo。这zhè时shí正zhèng是shì盛shèng夏xià。我wǒ们men下xià船chuán后hòu,借jiè着zhe新xīn生shēng的de晚wǎn凉liáng和hé河hé上shàng的de微wēi风fēng,暑shǔ气qì已yǐ渐jiàn渐jiàn消xiāo散sàn;到dào了le此cǐ地dì,豁huō然rán开kāi朗lǎng,身shēn子zi顿dùn然rán轻qīng了liǎo——习xí习xí的de清qīng风fēng荏rěn苒rǎn在zài面miàn上shàng、手shǒu上shàng、衣yī上shàng,这zhè便biàn又yòu感gǎn到dào了liǎo一yī缕lǚ新xīn凉liáng了liǎo。南nán京jīng的de日rì光guāng,大dà概gài没méi有yǒu杭háng州zhōu猛měng烈liè;西xī湖hú的de夏xià夜yè老lǎo是shì热rè蓬péng蓬péng的de,水shuǐ像xiàng沸fèi着zhe一yì般bān,秦qín淮huái河hé的de水shuǐ却què尽jìn是shì这zhè样yàng冷lěng冷lěng地dì绿lǜ着zhe。任rèn你nǐ人rén影yǐng的de憧chōng憧chōng,歌gē声shēng的de扰rǎo扰rǎo,总zǒng像xiàng隔gé着zhe一yì层céng薄báo薄báo的de绿lǜ纱shā面miàn幂mì似shì的de;它tā尽jìn是shì这zhè样yàng静jìng静jìng的de、冷lěng冷lěng的de绿lǜ着zhe。我wǒ们men出chū了liǎo大dà中zhōng桥qiáo,走zǒu不bù上shàng半bàn里lǐ路lù,船chuán夫fū便biàn将jiāng船chuán划huà到dào一yì旁páng,停tíng了liǎo桨jiǎng由yóu它tā宕dàng着zhe。他tā以yǐ为wéi那nà里lǐ正zhèng是shì繁fán华huá的de极jí点diǎn,再zài过guò去qù就jiù是shì荒huāng凉liáng了liǎo;所suǒ以yǐ让ràng我wǒ们men多duō多duō赏shǎng鉴jiàn一yí会huì儿er。他tā自zì己jǐ却què静jìng静jìng的de蹲dūn着zhe。他tā是shì看kàn惯guàn这zhè光guāng景jǐng的de了liǎo,大dà约yuē只zhǐ是shì一yí个gè无wú可kě无wú不bù可kě。这zhè无wú可kě无wú不bù可kě,无wú论lùn是shì升shēng的de沉chén的de,总zǒng之zhī,都dōu比bǐ我wǒ们men高gāo了liǎo。

那nà时shí河hé里lǐ闹nào热rè极jí了le;船chuán大dà半bàn泊bó着zhe,小xiǎo半bàn在zài水shuǐ上shàng穿chuān梭suō似shì的de来lái往wǎng。停tíng泊bó着zhe的de都dōu在zài近jìn市shì的de那nà一yì边biān,我wǒ们men的de船chuán自zì然rán也yě夹jiá在zài其qí中zhōng。因yīn为wèi这zhè边biān略lüè略lüè的de挤jǐ,便biàn觉jué得de那nà边biān十shí分fēn的de疏shū了liǎo。在zài每měi一yī只zhī船chuán从cóng那nà边biān过guò去qù时shí,我wǒ们men能néng画huà出chū它tā的de轻qīng轻qīng的de影yǐng和hé曲qǔ曲qǔ的de波bō,在zài我wǒ们men的de心xīn上shàng;这zhè显xiǎn著zhù是shì空kōng,且qiě显xiǎn著zhù是shì静jìng了liǎo。那nà时shí处chù处chù都dōu是shì歌gē声shēng和hé凄qī厉lì的de胡hú琴qín声shēng,圆yuán润rùn的de喉hóu咙lóng,确què乎hū是shì很hěn少shǎo的de。但dàn那nà生shēng涩sè的de,尖jiān脆cuì的de调diào子zi能néng使shǐ人rén有yǒu少shào年nián的de,粗cū率shuài不bù拘jū的de感gǎn觉jué,也yě正zhèng可kě快kuài我wǒ们men的de意yì。况kuàng且qiě多duō少shǎo隔gé开kāi些xiē儿ér听tīng着zhe,因yīn为wèi想xiǎng像xiàng与yǔ渴kě慕mù的de做zuò美měi,总zǒng觉jué更gèng有yǒu滋zī味wèi;而ér竟jìng发fā的de喧xuān嚣áo,抑yì扬yáng的de不bù齐qí,远yuǎn近jìn的de杂zá沓tà,和hé乐lè器qì的de嘈cáo嘈cáo切qiè切qiè,合hé成chéng另lìng一yī意yì味wèi的de谐xié音yīn,也yě使shǐ我wǒ们men无wú所suǒ适shì从cóng,如rú随suí着zhe大dà风fēng而ér走zǒu。这zhè实shí在zài因yīn为wèi我wǒ们men的de心xīn枯kū涩sè久jiǔ了liǎo,变biàn为wèi脆cuì弱ruò;故gù偶ǒu然rán润rùn泽zé一yí下xià,便biàn疯fēng狂kuáng似shì的de不bù能néng自zì主zhǔ了liǎo,但dàn秦qín淮huái河hé确què也yě腻nì人rén。即jí如rú船chuán里lǐ的de人rén面miàn,无wú论lùn是shì和hé我wǒ们men一yì堆duī儿ér泊bó着zhe的de,无wú论lùn是shì从cóng我wǒ们men眼yǎn前qián过guò去qù的de,总zǒng是shì模mó模mó糊hu糊hú的de,甚shèn至zhì渺miǎo渺miǎo茫máng茫máng的de;任rèn你nǐ张zhāng圆yuán了liǎo眼yǎn睛jīng,揩kāi净jìng了liǎo眦zì垢gòu,也yě是shì枉wǎng然rán,这zhè真zhēn够gòu人rén想xiǎng呢ne。在zài我wǒ们men停tíng泊bó的de地dì方fāng,灯dēng光guāng原yuán是shì纷fēn然rán的de;不bú过guò这zhè些xiē灯dēng光guāng都dōu是shì黄huáng而ér有yǒu晕yūn的de。黄huáng已yǐ经jīng不bù能néng明míng了le,再zài加jiā上shàng了liǎo晕yūn,便biàn更gèng不bù成chéng了liǎo。灯dēng愈yù多duō,晕yūn就jiù愈yù甚shèn;在zài繁fán星xīng般bān的de黄huáng的de交jiāo错cuò里lǐ,秦qín淮huái河hé仿fǎng佛fú笼lóng上shàng了liǎo一yī团tuán光guāng雾wù。光guāng芒máng与yǔ雾wù气qì腾téng腾téng的de晕yūn着zhe,什shén么me都dōu只zhī剩shèng了liǎo轮lún廓kuò了liǎo;所suǒ以yǐ人rén面miàn的de详xiáng细xì的de曲qū线xiàn,便biàn消xiāo失shī于yú我wǒ们men的de眼yǎn底dǐ了liǎo。但dàn灯dēng光guāng究jiū竟jìng夺duó不bù了liǎo那nà边biān的de月yuè色sè;灯dēng光guāng是shì浑hún的de,月yuè色sè是shì清qīng的de。在zài浑hún沌dùn的de灯dēng光guāng里lǐ,渗shèn入rù一yī派pài清qīng辉huī,却què真zhēn是shì奇qí迹jì!那nà晚wǎn月yuè儿ér已yǐ瘦shòu削xuē了liǎo两liǎng三sān分fēn。她tā晚wǎn妆zhuāng才cái罢bà,盈yíng盈yíng的de上shàng了liǎo柳liǔ梢shāo头tóu。天tiān是shì蓝lán得dé可kě爱ài,仿fǎng佛fú一yī汪wāng水shuǐ似shì的de;月yuè儿ér便biàn更gèng出chū落luò得dé精jīng神shén了liǎo。岸àn上shàng原yuán有yǒu三sān株zhū两liǎng株zhū的de垂chuí杨yáng树shù,淡dàn淡dàn的de影yǐng子zi,在zài水shuǐ里lǐ摇yáo曳yè着zhe。它tā们men那nà柔róu细xì的de枝zhī条tiáo浴yù着zhe月yuè光guāng,就jiù像xiàng一yī支zhī支zhī美měi人rén的de臂bì膊bó,交jiāo互hù的de缠chán着zhe、挽wǎn着zhe;又yòu像xiàng是shì月yuè儿ér披pī着zhe的de髪fà。而ér月yuè儿ér偶ǒu尔ěr也yě从cóng它tā们men的de交jiāo叉chā处chù偷tōu偷tōu窥kuī看kàn我wǒ们men,大dà有yǒu小xiǎo姑gū娘niáng怕pà羞xiū的de样yàng子zi。岸àn上shàng另lìng有yǒu几jǐ株zhū不bù知zhī名míng的de老lǎo树shù,光guāng光guāng的de立lì着zhe;在zài月yuè光guāng里lǐ照zhào起qǐ来lái,却què又yòu俨yǎn然rán是shì精jīng神shén矍jué铄shuò的de老lǎo人rén。远yuǎn处chù快kuài到dào天tiān际jì线xiàn了liǎo,才cái有yǒu一yī两liǎng片piàn白bái云yún,亮liàng得dé现xiàn出chū异yì彩cǎi,像xiàng是shì美měi丽lì的de贝bèi壳ké一yì般bān。白bái云yún下xià便biàn是shì黑hēi黑hēi的de一yí带dài轮lún廓kuò;是shì一yī条tiáo随suí意yì画huà的de不bù规guī则zé的de曲qū线xiàn。这zhè一yī段duàn光guāng景jǐng,和hé河hé中zhōng的de风fēng味wèi大dà异yì了liǎo。但dàn灯dēng与yǔ月yuè竟jìng能néng并bìng存cún着zhe,交jiāo融róng着zhe,使shǐ月yuè成chéng了le缠chán绵mián的de月yuè,灯dēng射shè着zhe渺miǎo渺miǎo的de灵líng辉huī,这zhè正zhèng是shì天tiān之zhī所suǒ以yǐ厚hòu秦qín淮huái河hé,也yě正zhèng是shì天tiān之zhī所suǒ以yǐ厚hòu我wǒ们men了liǎo。

这zhè时shí却què遇yù着zhe了liǎo难nán解jiě的de纠jiū纷fēn。秦qín淮huái河hé上shàng原yuán有yǒu一yì种zhǒng歌gē妓jì,是shì以yǐ歌gē为wèi业yè的de。从cóng前qián都dōu在zài茶chá舫fǎng上shàng,唱chàng些xiē大dà曲qǔ之zhī类lèi。每měi日rì午wǔ后hòu一yì时shí起qǐ;什shén么me时shí候hòu止zhǐ,却què忘wàng记jì了liǎo。晚wǎn上shàng照zhào样yàng也yě有yǒu一yī回huí,也yě在zài黄huáng晕yūn的de灯dēng光guāng里lǐ。我wǒ从cóng前qián过guò南nán京jīng时shí,曾céng随suí着zhe朋péng友yǒu去qù听tīng过guò两liǎng次cì。因yīn为wèi茶chá舫fǎng里lǐ的de人rén脸liǎn太tài多duō了liǎo,觉jué得de不bú大dà适shì意yì,终zhōng于yú听tīng不bù出chū所suǒ以yǐ然rán。前qián年nián听tīng说shuō歌gē妓jì被bèi取qǔ缔dì了liǎo,不bù知zhī怎zěn的de,颇pō涉shè想xiǎng了liǎo几jǐ次cì却què想xiǎng不bù出chū什shén么me。这zhè次cì到dào南nán京jīng,先xiān到dào茶chá舫fǎng上shàng去qù看kàn看kàn,觉jué得de颇pō是shì寂jì寥liáo,令lìng我wǒ无wú端duān的de怅chàng怅chàng了liǎo。不bú料liào她tā们men却què仍réng在zài秦qín淮huái河hé里lǐ挣zhēng扎zhá着zhe,不bú料liào她tā们men竟jìng会huì纠jiū缠chán到dào我wǒ们men,我wǒ于yú是shì很hěn张zhāng皇huáng了liǎo,她tā们men也yě乘chéng着zhe「七qī板bǎn子zǐ」,她tā们men总zǒng是shì坐zuò在zài舱cāng前qián的de。舱cāng前qián点diǎn着zháo石shí油yóu汽qì灯dēng,光guāng亮liàng炫xuàn人rén眼yǎn目mù:坐zuò在zài下xià面miàn的de,自zì然rán是shì纤xiān毫háo毕bì见jiàn了liǎo。引yǐn诱yòu客kè人rén们men的de力lì量liàng,也yě便biàn在zài此cǐ了liǎo。舱cāng里lǐ躲duǒ着zhe乐lè工gōng等děng人rén,映yìng着zhe汽qì灯dēng的de余yú辉huī蠕rú动dòng着zhe;他tā们men是shì永yǒng远yuǎn不bù被bèi注zhù意yì的de。每měi船chuán的de歌gē妓jì大dà约yuē都dōu是shì二èr人rén;天tiān色sè一yī黑hēi,她tā们men的de船chuán就jiù在zài大dà中zhōng桥qiáo外wài往wǎng来lái不bù息xī的de兜dōu生shēng意yì。无wú论lùn行xíng着zhe的de船chuán,泊bó着zhe的de船chuán,都dōu要yào来lái兜dōu揽lǎn的de。这zhè都dōu是shì我wǒ后hòu来lái推tuī想xiǎng出chū来lái的de。那nà晚wǎn不bù知zhī怎zěn样yàng,忽hū然rán轮lún着zhe我wǒ们men的de船chuán了liǎo。我wǒ们men的de船chuán好hǎo好hǎo的de停tíng着zhe,一yī只zhī歌gē舫fǎng划huà向xiàng我wǒ们men来lái了liǎo;渐jiàn渐jiàn和hé我wǒ们men的de船chuán并bìng着zhe了liǎo。烁shuò烁shuò的de灯dēng光guāng逼bī得dé我wǒ们men皱zhòu起qǐ了liǎo眉méi头tóu;我wǒ们men的de风fēng尘chén色sè全quán给gěi它tā托tuō出chū来lái了liǎo,这zhè使shǐ我wǒ踧cù踖jí不bù安ān了liǎo。那nà时shí一yí个gè伙huǒ计jì跨kuà过guò船chuán来lái,拿ná着zhe摊tān开kāi的de歌gē折zhé,就jiù近jìn塞sāi向xiàng我wǒ的de手shǒu里lǐ,说shuō:「点diǎn几jǐ出chū吧ba!」他tā跨kuà过guò来lái的de时shí候hòu,我wǒ们men船chuán上shàng似sì乎hū有yǒu许xǔ多duō眼yǎn光guāng跟gēn着zhe。同tóng时shí相xiāng近jìn的de别bié的de船chuán上shàng也yě似sì乎hū有yǒu许xǔ多duō眼yǎn睛jīng炯jiǒng炯jiǒng的de向xiàng我wǒ们men船chuán上shàng看kàn着zhe。我wǒ真zhēn窘jiǒng了liǎo!我wǒ也yě装zhuāng出chū大dà方fāng的de样yàng子zi,向xiàng歌gē妓jì们men瞥piē了liǎo一yì眼yǎn,但dàn究jiū竟jìng是shì不bù成chéng的de!我wǒ勉miǎn强qiǎng将jiāng那nà歌gē折zhé翻fān了liǎo一yī翻fān,却què不bù曾céng看kàn清qīng了liǎo几jǐ个gè字zì;便biàn赶gǎn紧jǐn递dì还hái那nà伙huǒ计jì,一yí面miàn不bù好hǎo意yì思si地dì说shuō「不bú要yào,我wǒ们men⋯⋯不bú要yào。」他tā便biàn塞sāi给gěi平píng伯bó,平píng伯bó掉diào转zhuǎn头tóu去qù,摇yáo手shǒu说shuō:「不bú要yào!」那nà人rén还hái腻nì着zhe不bù走zǒu。平píng伯bó又yòu回huí过guò脸liǎn来lái,摇yáo着zhe头tóu道dào「不bú要yào!」于yú是shì那nà人rén重zhòng到dào我wǒ处chù,我wǒ窘jiǒng着zhe再zài拒jù绝jué了liǎo他tā。他tā这zhè才cái有yǒu所suǒ不bú屑xiè似shì的de走zǒu了liǎo。

我wǒ的de心xīn立lì刻kè放fàng下xià,如rú释shì了liǎo重zhòng负fù一yì般bān。我wǒ们men就jiù开kāi始shǐ自zì白bái了liǎo。

我wǒ说shuō我wǒ受shòu了liǎo道dào德dé律lǜ的de压yā迫pò,拒jù绝jué了liǎo她tā们men;心xīn里lǐ似sì乎hū很hěn抱bào歉qiàn的de。这zhè所suǒ谓wèi抱bào歉qiàn,一yí面miàn对duì于yú她tā们men,一yí面miàn对duì于yú我wǒ自zì己jǐ。她tā们men于yú我wǒ们men虽suī然rán没méi有yǒu很hěn奢shē的de希xī望wàng;但dàn总zǒng有yǒu些xiē希xī望wàng的de。我wǒ们men拒jù绝jué了liǎo她tā们men,无wú论lùn理lǐ由yóu如rú何hé充chōng足zú,却què使shǐ她tā们men的de希xī望wàng受shòu了liǎo伤shāng;这zhè总zǒng有yǒu几jǐ分fēn不bù做zuò美měi了liǎo,这zhè是shì我wǒ觉jué得de很hěn怅chàng怅chàng的de。至zhì于yú我wǒ自zì己jǐ,更gèng有yǒu一yì种zhǒng不bù足zú之zhī感gǎn。我wǒ这zhè时shí被bèi四sì面miàn的de歌gē声shēng诱yòu惑huò了liǎo,​​降xiáng伏fú了liǎo;但dàn是shì远yuǎn远yuǎn的de,远yuǎn远yuǎn的de歌gē声shēng总zǒng仿fǎng佛fú隔gé着zhuó重zhòng衣yī搔sāo痒yǎng似shì的de,越yuè搔sāo越yuè搔sāo不bù着zhe痒yǎng处chù。我wǒ于yú是shì憧chōng憬jǐng着zhe贴tiē耳ěr的de妙miào音yīn了liǎo。在zài歌gē舫fǎng划huà来lái时shí,我wǒ的de憧chōng憬jǐng,变biàn为wèi盼pàn望wàng;我wǒ固gù执zhí的de盼pàn望wàng着zhe,有yǒu如rú饥jī渴kě。虽suī然rán从cóng浅qiǎn薄bó的de经jīng验yàn里lǐ,也yě能néng够gòu推tuī知zhī,那nà贴tiē耳ěr的de歌gē声shēng,将jiāng剥bāo去qù了liǎo一yí切qiè的de美měi妙miào;但dàn一yí个gè平píng常cháng的de人rén像xiàng我wǒ的de,谁shuí愿yuàn凭píng了liǎo理lǐ性xìng之zhī力lì去qù丑chǒu化huà未wèi来lái呢ne?我wǒ宁nìng愿yuàn自zì己jǐ骗piàn着zhe了liǎo。不bú过guò我wǒ的de社shè会huì感gǎn性xìng是shì很hěn敏mǐn锐ruì的de;我wǒ的de思sī力lì能néng拆chāi穿chuān道dào德dé律lǜ的de西xī洋yáng镜jìng,而ér我wǒ的de感gǎn情qíng却què终zhōng于yú被bèi它tā压yā服fú着zhe。我wǒ于yú是shì有yǒu所suǒ顾gù忌jì了liǎo,尤yóu其qí是shì在zài众zhòng目mù昭zhāo彰zhāng的de时shí候hòu。道dào德dé律lǜ的de力lì,本běn来lái是shì民mín众zhòng赋fù予yǔ的de;在zài民mín众zhòng的de面miàn前qián,自zì然rán更gèng显xiǎn出chū它tā的de威wēi严yán了liǎo。我wǒ这zhè时shí一yí面miàn盼pàn望wàng,一yí面miàn却què感gǎn到dào了liǎo两liǎng重chóng的de禁jìn制zhì:一yī、在zài通tōng俗sú的de意yì义yì上shàng,接jiē近jìn妓jì者zhě总zǒng算suàn一yì种zhǒng不bú正zhèng当dāng的de行xíng为wéi;二èr、妓jì是shì一yì种zhǒng不bù健jiàn全quán的de职zhí业yè,我wǒ们men对duì于yú她tā们men,应yīng有yǒu哀āi矜jīn勿wù喜xǐ之zhī心xīn,不bù应yìng赏shǎng玩wán的de去qù听tīng她tā们men的de歌gē。在zài众zhòng目mù睽kuí睽kuí之zhī下xià,这zhè两liǎng种zhǒng思sī想xiǎng在zài我wǒ心xīn里lǐ最zuì为wèi旺wàng盛shèng。她tā们men暂zàn时shí压yā倒dǎo了liǎo我wǒ的de听tīng歌gē的de盼pàn望wàng,这zhè便biàn成chéng就jiù了liǎo我wǒ的de灰huī色sè的de拒jù绝jué。那nà时shí的de心xīn实shí在zài异yì常cháng状zhuàng态tài中zhōng,觉jué得de颇pō是shì昏hūn乱luàn。歌gē舫fǎng去qù了liǎo,暂zàn时shí宁níng静jìng之zhī后hòu,我wǒ的de思sī绪xù又yòu如rú潮cháo涌yǒng了liǎo。两liǎng个gè相xiāng反fǎn的de意yì思sī在zài我wǒ心xīn头tóu往wǎng复fù:卖mài歌gē和hé卖mài淫yín不bù同tóng,听tīng歌gē和hé狎xiá妓jì不bù同tóng,又yòu干gàn道dào德dé甚shèn事shì?但dàn是shì,但dàn是shì,她tā们men既jì被bèi逼bī的de以yǐ歌gē为wèi业yè,她tā们men的de歌gē必bì无wú艺yì术shù味wèi的de;况kuàng她tā们men的de身shēn世shì,我wǒ们men究jiū竟jìng该gāi同tóng情qíng的de,所suǒ以yǐ拒jù绝jué倒dǎo也yě是shì正zhèng办bàn。但dàn这zhè些xiē意yì思sī终zhōng于yú不bù曾céng撇piē开kāi我wǒ的de听tīng歌gē的de盼pàn望wàng。它tā力lì量liàng异yì常cháng坚jiān强qiáng;它tā总zǒng想xiǎng将jiāng别bié的de思sī绪xù踏tà在zài脚jiǎo下xià。从cóng这zhè重chóng重chóng的de争zhēng鬬dòu里lǐ,我wǒ感gǎn到dào了liǎo浓nóng厚hòu的de不bù足zú之zhī感gǎn。这zhè不bù足zú之zhī感gǎn使shǐ我wǒ的de心xīn盘pán旋xuán不bù安ān,起qǐ坐zuò都dōu不bù安ān宁níng了liǎo。唉ài!我wǒ承chéng认rèn我wǒ是shì一yí个gè自zì私sī的de人rén!平píng伯bó呢ne,却què与yǔ我wǒ不bù同tóng。他tā引yǐn周zhōu启qǐ明míng先xiān生shēng的de诗shī,「因yīn为wèi我wǒ有yǒu妻qī子zǐ,所suǒ以yǐ我wǒ爱ài一yí切qiè的de女nǚ人rén;因yīn为wèi我wǒ有yǒu子zǐ女nǚ,所suǒ以yǐ我wǒ爱ài一yí切qiè的de孩hái子zi。」他tā的de意yì思sī可kě以yǐ见jiàn了liǎo。他tā因yīn为wèi推tuī及jí的de同tóng情qíng,爱ài着zhe那nà些xiē歌gē妓jì,并bìng且qiě尊zūn重zhòng着zhe她tā们men,所suǒ以yǐ拒jù绝jué了liǎo她tā们men。在zài这zhè种zhǒng情qíng形xíng下xià,他tā自zì然rán以yǐ为wéi听tīng是shì对duì于yú她tā们men的de一yì种zhǒng侮wǔ辱rǔ。但dàn他tā也yě是shì想xiǎng听tīng歌gē的de,虽suī然rán不bù和hé我wǒ一yí样yàng。所suǒ以yǐ在zài他tā的de心xīn中zhōng,当dāng然rán也yě有yǒu一yī番fān小xiǎo小xiǎo的de争zhēng鬬dòu;争zhēng鬬dòu的de结jié果guǒ,是shì同tóng情qíng胜shèng了liǎo。至zhì于yú道dào德dé律lǜ,在zài他tā是shì没méi有yǒu什shén么me的de:因yīn为wèi他tā很hěn有yǒu蔑miè视shì一yí切qiè的de倾qīng向xiàng,民mín众zhòng的de力lì量liàng在zài他tā是shì不bú大dà觉jué着zhe的de。这zhè时shí他tā的de心xīn意yì的de活huó动dòng比bǐ较jiào简jiǎn单dān,又yòu比bǐ较jiào松sōng弱ruò,故gù事shì后hòu还hái怡yí然rán自zì若ruò;我wǒ却què不bù能néng了liǎo。这zhè里lǐ平píng伯bó又yòu比bǐ我wǒ高gāo了liǎo。

在zài我wǒ们men谈tán话huà中zhōng间jiān,又yòu来lái了le两liǎng只zhī歌gē舫fǎng。伙huǒ计jì照zhào前qián一yí样yàng的de请qǐng我wǒ们men点diǎn戏xì,我wǒ们men照zhào前qián一yí样yàng的de拒jù绝jué了liǎo。我wǒ受shòu了liǎo三sān次cì窘jiǒng,心xīn​​里lǐ的de不bù安ān更gèng甚shèn了liǎo。清qīng艳yàn的de夜yè景jǐng也yě为wèi之zhī减jiǎn色sè。船chuán夫fū大dà约yuē因yīn为wèi要yào赶gǎn第dì二èr趟tàng生shēng意yì,催cuī着zhe我wǒ们men回huí去qù;我wǒ们men无wú可kě无wú不bù可kě的de答dā应ying了liǎo。我wǒ们men渐jiàn渐jiàn和hé那nà些xiē晕yūn黄huáng的de灯dēng光guāng远yuǎn了liǎo,只zhǐ有yǒu些xiē月yuè色sè冷lěng清qīng清qīng的de随suí着zhe我wǒ们men的de归guī舟zhōu。我wǒ们men的de船chuán竟jìng没méi个gè伴bàn儿ér,秦qín淮huái河hé的de夜yè正zhèng长cháng哩lī!到dào大dà中zhōng桥qiáo近jìn处chù,才cái遇yù着zhe一yī只zhī来lái船chuán。这zhè是shì一yī只zhī载zǎi妓jì的de板bǎn船chuán,黑hēi漆qī漆qī的de没méi有yǒu一yì点diǎn光guāng。船chuán头tóu上shàng坐zuò着zhe一yí个gè妓jì女nǚ;暗àn里lǐ看kàn出chū,白bái地dì小xiǎo花huā的de衫shān子zǐ,黑hēi的de下xià衣yī。她tā手shǒu里lǐ拉lā着zhe胡hú琴qín,口kǒu里lǐ唱chàng着zhe青qīng衫shān的de调diào子zi。她tā唱chàng得dé响xiǎng亮liàng而ér圆yuán转zhuǎn;当dāng她tā的de船chuán箭jiàn一yì般bān驶shǐ过guò去qù时shí,余yú音yīn还hái袅niǎo袅niǎo的de在zài我wǒ们men耳ěr际jì,使shǐ我wǒ们men倾qīng听tīng而ér向xiàng往wǎng。想xiǎng不bú到dào在zài弩nǔ末mò的de游yóu踪zōng里lǐ,还hái能néng领lǐng略lüè到dào这zhè样yàng的de清qīng歌gē!这zhè时shí船chuán过guò大dà中zhōng桥qiáo了liǎo,森sēn森sēn的de水shuǐ影yǐng,如rú黑hēi暗àn张zhāng着zhe巨jù口kǒu,要yào将jiāng我wǒ们men的de船chuán吞tūn了liǎo下xià去qù。我wǒ们men回huí顾gù那nà渺miǎo渺miǎo的de黄huáng光guāng,不bú胜shèng依yī恋liàn之zhī情qíng;我wǒ们men感gǎn到dào了liǎo寂jì寞mò了liǎo!这zhè一yī段duàn地dì方fāng夜yè色sè甚shèn浓nóng,又yòu有yǒu两liǎng头tóu的de灯dēng火huǒ招zhāo邀yāo着zhe;桥qiáo外wài的de灯dēng火huǒ不bú用yòng说shuō了liǎo,过guò了liǎo桥qiáo另lìng有yǒu东dōng关guān头tóu疏shū疏shū的de灯dēng火huǒ。我wǒ们men忽hū然rán仰yǎng头tóu看kàn见jiàn依yī人rén的de素sù月yuè,不bù觉jué深shēn悔huǐ归guī来lái之zhī早zǎo了liǎo!走zǒu过guò东dōng关guān头tóu,有yǒu一yī两liǎng只zhī大dà船chuán湾wān泊bó着zhe,又yòu有yǒu几jǐ只zhī船chuán向xiàng我wǒ们men来lái着zhe。嚣áo嚣áo的de一yí阵zhèn歌gē声shēng人rén语yǔ,仿fǎng佛fú笑xiào我wǒ们men无wú伴bàn的de孤gū舟zhōu哩lī。东dōng关guān头tóu转zhuǎn湾wān,河hé上shàng的de夜yè色sè更gèng浓nóng了liǎo;临lín水shuǐ的de妓jì楼lóu上shàng,时shí时shí从cóng帘lián缝fèng里lǐ射shè出chū一yí线xiàn一yí线xiàn的de灯dēng光guāng;仿fǎng佛fú黑hēi暗àn从cóng酣hān睡shuì里lǐ眨zhǎ了liǎo一yì眨zhǎ眼yǎn。我wǒ们men默mò然rán的de对duì着zhe,静jìng听tīng那nà汩gǔ汩gǔ的de桨jiǎng声shēng,几jī乎hū要yào入rù睡shuì了liǎo;朦méng胧lóng里lǐ却què温wēn寻xún着zhe适shì才cái的de繁fán华huá的de余yú味wèi。我wǒ那nà不bù安ān的de心xīn在zài静jìng里lǐ愈yù显xiǎn活huó跃yuè了liǎo!这zhè时shí我wǒ们men都dōu有yǒu了le不bù足zú之zhī感gǎn,而ér我wǒ的de更gèng其qí浓nóng厚hòu。我wǒ们men却què又yòu不bú愿yuàn回huí去qù,于yú是shì只zhǐ能néng由yóu懊ào悔huǐ而ér怅chàng惘wǎng了liǎo,船chuán里lǐ便biàn满mǎn载zài着zhe怅chàng惘wǎng了liǎo。直zhí到dào利lì涉shè桥qiáo下xià,微wēi微wēi嘈cáo杂zá的de人rén声shēng,才cái使shǐ我wǒ豁huō然rán一yī惊jīng;那nà光guāng景jǐng却què又yòu不bù同tóng。右yòu岸àn的de河hé房fáng里lǐ,都dōu大dà开kāi了liǎo窗chuāng户hù,里lǐ面miàn亮liàng着zhe晃huàng晃huàng的de电diàn灯dēng,电diàn灯dēng的de光guāng射shè到dào水shuǐ上shàng,蜿wān蜒yán曲qū折zhé,闪shǎn闪shǎn不bù息xī,正zhèng如rú跳tiào舞wǔ着zhe的de仙xiān女nǚ的de臂bì膊bó。我wǒ们men的de船chuán已yǐ在zài她tā的de臂bì膊bó里lǐ了liǎo;如rú睡shuì在zài摇yáo篮lán里lǐ一yí样yàng,倦juàn了liǎo的de我wǒ们men便biàn又yòu入rù梦mèng了liǎo。那nà电diàn灯dēng下xià的de人rén物wù,只zhī觉jué得de像xiàng蚂mǎ蚁yǐ一yì般bān,更gèng不bù去qù萦yíng念niàn。这zhè是shì最zuì后hòu的de梦mèng;可kě惜xī的de是shì最zuì短duǎn的de梦mèng!黑hēi暗àn重chóng复fù落luò在zài我wǒ们men面miàn前qián,我wǒ们men看kàn见jiàn傍bàng岸àn的de空kōng船chuán上shàng一yī星xīng两liǎng星xīng的de、枯kū燥zào无wú力lì又yòu摇yáo摇yáo不bú定dìng的de灯dēng光guāng。我wǒ们men的de梦mèng醒xǐng了liǎo,我wǒ们men知zhī道dào就jiù要yào上shàng岸àn了liǎo;我wǒ们men心xīn里lǐ充chōng满mǎn了liǎo幻huàn灭miè的de情qíng思sī。

这zhè部bù作zuò品pǐn在zài1931年nián1月yuè1日rì以yǐ前qián出chū版bǎn,其qí作zuò者zhě1948年nián逝shì世shì,在zài美měi国guó以yǐ及jí版bǎn权quán期qī限xiàn是shì作zuò者zhě终zhōng身shēn加jiā75年nián以yǐ下xià的de国guó家jiā以yǐ及jí地dì区qū,属shǔ于yú公gōng有yǒu领lǐng域yù。

这zhè部bù作zuò品pǐn也yě可kě能néng在zài本běn国guó本běn地dì版bǎn权quán期qī限xiàn更gèng长cháng,但dàn对duì外wài国guó外wài地dì作zuò品pǐn应yìng用yòng较jiào短duǎn期qī限xiàn规guī则zé的de国guó家jiā以yǐ及jí地dì区qū,属shǔ于yú公gōng有yǒu领lǐng域yù。

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